It's a Mess: The bold, the bald, and the beautiful

If you're wondering who the title is talking about, it's me. I'm the bold, the bald, and the beautiful -- sorry everyone, I'm taking all three titles.

A lot of people keep asking if it was really emotional shaving my head. If I'm being completely honest, it was a lot of fun. I wanted to choose when I would lose my hair. I didn't wait for it to completely fall out because I had to show chemo who the boss is (it's me, I'm the boss).

The cool thing about being bald is that it brings out the other features in your face. You start to appreciate the details. It also brings out how white your scalp really is. Don't get me wrong, when I first wake up in the morning, I feel like a boy, but that's okay. I'm just getting used to my egg head. 

Okay wait, the COOLEST thing about being bald is that I can now lotion my scalp. You best believe I lotion it up two times a day. Say goodbye to a dry scalp. Also, showering is so easy. Honestly, everyone should go bald. (maybe I'm just saying that so I don't feel alone as a baldy)

P.S. the people of Tik Tok love my bald head. This video has 868.7k views. 

Today was a great day! I got my PICC line in (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter -- a semi permanent IV) . This time, my appointment was at 2:00pm. (What!? A NORMAL hour!?) I had to go back to interventional radiology, but guess what? This time was no where near as bad as the central line. They still put a big tube into my veins, but this time it was through my arm instead of my neck. 

It's funny -- today was a good day even though I got another giant tube put into my veins. If you had told me a year ago that today would be considered a good day, I would have thrown up on your feet. But hey, it is what it is -- I'm on the road to recovery. 

Here's the REAL reason why today was so good -- on my way home from the hospital, I got a text from BYU's Marriott School of Business. I got accepted into the marketing program! Not to toot my own horn, but it's a competitive program! Watch out business world, a bald, boss lady is coming your way. 

Speaking of being admitted, I get admitted into the hospital tomorrow for 10 to 14 days. This is the pinnacle of my treatment. Some may say that this is the big daddy treatment. I'm not nervous -- I'm just ready. I've done two rounds of chemo before, but this time it will be five days in a row of chemo. I know it's going to suck, and I'll feel like I got ran over by a truck, but I'm still ready (*Cue Eye of the Tiger). If I expect the worst, maybe I'll be surprised! 

I'm excited to decorate my hospital room and turn it into a VSCO hangout spot. Things are about to get interesting my friends! 

I'm really proud of myself. I'm getting punched in the face by MS, but I'm getting back up and fighting back. I haven't let this disease take over my life. I am not my disability. I might have to take a different path to achieve my goals, but I can promise you that I will still achieve. It's not easy, but I'm learning so much every step of the way. I can do hard things. I hope you know that you can too.