It's a Mess: The bold, the bald, and the beautiful

If you're wondering who the title is talking about, it's me. I'm the bold, the bald, and the beautiful -- sorry everyone, I'm taking all three titles.

A lot of people keep asking if it was really emotional shaving my head. If I'm being completely honest, it was a lot of fun. I wanted to choose when I would lose my hair. I didn't wait for it to completely fall out because I had to show chemo who the boss is (it's me, I'm the boss).

The cool thing about being bald is that it brings out the other features in your face. You start to appreciate the details. It also brings out how white your scalp really is. Don't get me wrong, when I first wake up in the morning, I feel like a boy, but that's okay. I'm just getting used to my egg head. 

Okay wait, the COOLEST thing about being bald is that I can now lotion my scalp. You best believe I lotion it up two times a day. Say goodbye to a dry scalp. Also, showering is so easy. Honestly, everyone should go bald. (maybe I'm just saying that so I don't feel alone as a baldy)

P.S. the people of Tik Tok love my bald head. This video has 868.7k views. 

Today was a great day! I got my PICC line in (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter -- a semi permanent IV) . This time, my appointment was at 2:00pm. (What!? A NORMAL hour!?) I had to go back to interventional radiology, but guess what? This time was no where near as bad as the central line. They still put a big tube into my veins, but this time it was through my arm instead of my neck. 

It's funny -- today was a good day even though I got another giant tube put into my veins. If you had told me a year ago that today would be considered a good day, I would have thrown up on your feet. But hey, it is what it is -- I'm on the road to recovery. 

Here's the REAL reason why today was so good -- on my way home from the hospital, I got a text from BYU's Marriott School of Business. I got accepted into the marketing program! Not to toot my own horn, but it's a competitive program! Watch out business world, a bald, boss lady is coming your way. 

Speaking of being admitted, I get admitted into the hospital tomorrow for 10 to 14 days. This is the pinnacle of my treatment. Some may say that this is the big daddy treatment. I'm not nervous -- I'm just ready. I've done two rounds of chemo before, but this time it will be five days in a row of chemo. I know it's going to suck, and I'll feel like I got ran over by a truck, but I'm still ready (*Cue Eye of the Tiger). If I expect the worst, maybe I'll be surprised! 

I'm excited to decorate my hospital room and turn it into a VSCO hangout spot. Things are about to get interesting my friends! 

I'm really proud of myself. I'm getting punched in the face by MS, but I'm getting back up and fighting back. I haven't let this disease take over my life. I am not my disability. I might have to take a different path to achieve my goals, but I can promise you that I will still achieve. It's not easy, but I'm learning so much every step of the way. I can do hard things. I hope you know that you can too. 


  1. Hi Ivy! My names Kaylee from Virginia. Honestly downloaded tiktok as a joke but saw your videos and honestly loved it. And now I’m here! Sorry for maybe being a little bit of a stalker. I looked you up on instagram afterwards just to see if you had posted any updates there on your treatments... You seem so incredibly sweet and uplifting and honestly just through reading your blog I think have taught me a lot. When facing hardships, I tend to look at the negative and shut down. But you are facing I’m sure one of the hardest things yet and you’re still so positive. Even on tiktok with some of the silly comments, you responded with grace and manner and were so polite. I know it may not always be like that behind the scenes and this has to be so difficult but please know that your personality and character truly shows through this blog and your short tiktok videos and while I may not know you personally I’m so happy and grateful you decided to share your story with me and a number of other people. I’m currently 19 and in college and share what I assume to be some of the same interests and just wanted to reach out immediately to let you know there’s people supporting you from all over! Crossing my fingers, toes, and praying for a speedy and full recovery. There’s no maybes, just when (especially with your positive and badass attitude). Thanks for being an inspiration. :)

    1. Okay why am I just seeing your comment!? You are so, so, so sweet. This message made me feel so happy!!! Thank you for stalking me!!! Just knowing that I had an impact on one person makes my day. DM me on instagram so we can be friends!


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